What dreams may come . . . .

Dreams have always been a big part of who I am. They have helped me to understand myself better, and they have given me direction and understanding about my life’s circumstances. I have not been very faithful about writing down my dreams, but in time I hope to have a routine down pat so that all these fascinating and wonderful events and images that invade my sleep can be recorded for my children and grand children to read.

Last night I had a lot of dreams, but one that stands out was about Shawn and an old ski-dooing helmet. He was standing outside with this helmet looking at it, staring for what seemed like an hour. When he finally came into the house with it, he looked at me and said, “I don’t know how to tell you this, but we have become very wealthy.”

I looked at the helmet and inside there was an inscription. It read “You’re a WINNER!!” I didn’t know what we had won or how much, but I knew from the look on Shawn’s face that it was a lot. Then I thought “What if it has expired?? That helmet is old and worn out.” I looked again at the inscription and saw that it now read “You’re a WINNER” and below that “This offer is good from 1918-2016″

When I woke up this morning I wne tot work in the kitchen cooking some soup (This part is real). As I was chopping veggies and putting stuff away my mind became plagued with thoughts of anger and bitterness about the sale of our commercial property and how much of a rip of the whole deal was. I was angry at the buyer because she thinks that God did this for her (at our expense). The thoughts were getting angrier and darker, and I asked God to help me with them (I don’t want to care, I don’t want to hurt etc). Then I remembered His words to me “Don’t look back”. He had told me this two or three times after everything had gone through with the sale of the property. I spoke outloud to myself “Don’t look back Natanis!! Look ahead!”

It was then that I remembered my dream. Almost instantly I knew what it meant:

Wealth and increase will come from unexpected places. God has put down the foundations and prepared it for us before we were born & it will go well beyond us in the future. It will not expire before we grab hold of it!!

The peace in my heart is increasing and the pain is subsiding. Now I have a fresh lease on life, and a new vision for my future. I am thankful the past is behind me and I no longer have to worry about struggling to keep my head above water. When I purchased that place I thought that it would be a blessing, but it turned out to be a curse on my marriage, my finances and my well being. Funny how we struggle to let go of the things that are harmful to us…..I am thankful to be released from it once and for all, and now to be able to lean on the everlasting arms of love and to allow Him to direct me in all my ways.